Friday, August 11, 2017

Delayed Obedience is Disobedience

Some of you may not know this about me, but I am a rule follower. Some may even call me a “goody two shoes.” I have always wanted to obey my parents, my teachers, or whoever was in charge. I listened to directions, followed the rules, and did what I was told, the best I could. If I was asked to do something I would respond with ‘Yes, sir” and get right to it.
Ok, so maybe it didn’t always go down like that, but overall, I was a very obedient child. I wanted to do the right thing and I was taught that was doing whatever was asked of me, right when it was asked.

Delayed obedience is disobedience. I have been told this as a child, as a student, and have used it myself as a teacher and I’m sure I will do so, as a mom. Delayed obedience is disobedience? Maybe you are questioning this principle. But think about this.

What if a parent tells a child to take out the trash and the child responds with,
“Hmmm… I’ll think about it.”

Or perhaps a teacher tells a student to write a three-page paper and have it on her desk in an hour and the student responds with,
“Maybe, later.”

Or what if a police officer pulls you over for speeding and asks for your license and registration and you tell him, 
“I will get it to you tomorrow.”

Is this disobedience?

Now, the child could have come back four hours later and took out the trash, or maybe the student came back the next day with a three-page paper written and handed in, and maybe you did show up to the police station the next day with your license and registration to be given to the officer. Technically what was asked of everyone was completed; isn’t that obedience? Perhaps. However, I guarantee there would be consequences in every one of those situations and rightfully so. 

Delayed obedience IS disobedience, but guess what? We do this to God all the time and we don’t even blink an eye! So many times, God tells us He wants us to do something and we tell Him, “I’ll think about it.” Or “Maybe, later.” And sometimes we even say, “I’ll get back to you tomorrow about that.”

When we ask our child to do something, we expect them to do it-NOW. God, our Heavenly Father, is no different. He wouldn’t have asked you to do it, if He didn’t want it done right then. So why do we think we can get away with ignoring God and delaying our answers to Him without consequence. (Just ask Jonah how that works out. Spoiler alert: He spends three days and three nights in the belly of a fish!) 

God may ask us to do some pretty crazy things. Things you may not understand or like. He may even call us to do something ‘impossible’. But if He calls you TO IT, you need to DO IT! All in- no delay! Immediate obedience. Side note: God doesn’t NEED your obedience. Your obedience has no benefit to Him, (He can accomplish what He wants done without you) but He knows your obedience can and will benefit YOU! Your relationship with Him will deepen, your faith will be increased, and my guess is you will see miracles happen and lives changed, including your own.

So what has God told you to do that you haven’t started doing yet? Why are you delaying? God loves you and wants what is best for you and sometimes that means taking you out of your comfort zone so you can grow in Him. What are you waiting for? When He calls you to do something- do it! No hesitation, just obedience.

I want to leave you with a passage from Matthew.

Matthew 4:18-22.

18 One day as Jesus was walking along the shore of the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers—Simon, also called Peter, and Andrew—throwing a net into the water, for they fished for a living. 19 Jesus called out to them, “Come, follow me, and I will show you how to fish for people!” 20 And they left their nets at once and followed him.
21 A little farther up the shore he saw two other brothers, James and John, sitting in a boat with their father, Zebedee, repairing their nets. And he called them to come, too. 22 They immediately followed him, leaving the boat and their father behind.
Next time God calls me to do something, my prayer is to respond like these fishermen. Eager, excited, all in. IMMEDIATE OBEDIENCE-NO DELAY!

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Headed to Preschool in the Fall

Well today I finally did it. I finally "officially" signed Aspen up for Preschool starting in August! I've been putting it off for a few months now because -yikes! Sending your baby to school for the first time is not easy! I know this is hard on any mom, but I feel it is 10 times more challenging when your child has special needs. 

Will she be able to communicate her feelings? Will she be treated well by her peers? Will the teachers see her true potential and ability? 

All of these questions do come to my mind, but I tend to focus more on the other questions I have.

How many more words will she learn at school so she can communicate with everyone? How many great friends will she make that will look past her disability and love her for her? How will she inspire her teachers and teach them to never limit any child based on their abilities?

I know, come August I will be a hot mess, but I'm so excited for this journey to continue! My sweet Aspen Ariya is a world changer and she wants everyone to know it! 

 #downsyndromeawareness #morealikethandifferent #journeywithdownsyndrome

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Happy Birthday, Mama!

20 Random Things My Mom Loves! ❤️

1. Jesus- She has a passion for Jesus that is rare and beautiful- always striving to be more like Him daily!
2. My dad- Though they are opposites in nearly every way they are truly soulmates who "makeup" where the other is lacking!
3. Her kids- She loves her kids more than anything and is very proud of all of our accomplishments!
4. Her grandchildren- Nothing brings more joy to her than spoiling and loving her grand babies!
5. Her family in general- Parents, siblings, nieces, nephews they all hold a very special place in her heart!
6. Books- She has a love for learning and a house full of books!
7. Giving gifts- Her love language is gift giving and she has a unique talent for finding the perfect gift for each person!
8. Theater- She loves the art of theater and is a very talented director!
9. Christmas- She loves ALL things Christmas and usually before Halloween! 😊
10. Her church/Bible Study- She loves her church and lights up when she talks about her Bible Study group!
11. Promptness- She always has and always will be on time and by on time I mean 20 minutes early!
12. Shopping- She loves to shop-anywhere any time!
13. Her new kitchen- She is so proud of her beautiful new kitchen and loves to put it to good use!
14. Branson- Branson is mom's Las Vegas! 😜
15. Her home- She may love Branson, but nothing will ever beat being home!
16. Ice Tea- She loves tea, BUT the cup must be filled to the brim with ice!
17. The law- I'm not sure she loves the law, but she is very faithful in obeying the law, which has dubbed her with the nickname "Miss Law"! 😊
18. Tiger Striped Fudge from Cabela's- Well duh, because fudge is delicious!
19. Red- The color red has always been her favorite color!
20. Writing- She is a very talented writer and has written many wonderful poems and children's books!

Happy Birthday, Momma! I love you and am so blessed to have you in my life!

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Make Everyday Valentine's Day!

Today is Valentines day, a day to show your loved ones how much you care, typically through heart shaped candy, ridiculously sized stuffed animals, and overpriced flowers. Often bigger gestures are given such as proposals on jumbo screens and kiss cams or love proclaimed in writing in the sky. Don't get me wrong, that stuff is great; showing someone you love them in any form is a win. However, in my household these are not common things on Valentine's Day partly because my husband doesn't realize it's a holiday until the next day, partly because he is frugal and wants to save money on other things, but mostly because he loves me so well on the other 364 days that February 14th is truly just another day. 

I woke up to this Valentine's Day 2017 around 2 am to a crying toddler who couldn't get back to sleep. It's been a rough few days for me and sleep is all my body craved. Without hesitation, my amazing husband got up and cuddled with her for over an hour until she fell back asleep. I didn't even ask, he just did it. I could say that was just my Valentines Day present, but in all honesty he had no idea it was Valentine's Day at the time, this is just who he is and what he does. He loves me well- he shows me well. 

Without asking, he has changed diapers, cooked meals, and gave me hugs at the exact moment I might break. He appreciates what I do and he tells me. All at the same time he provides for our family in a way that I can live my dream of providing for our family by staying home. 

I'm not sharing this to make you think we have it all together and our life is perfect- trust me it's not. This is more to encourage you to express your love tomorrow, the next day, next week, all the way until next year. Don't wait until next Valentine's Day to let your loved ones know you care. Show them every day by the things you say, the way you say them, and by every little thing you do. 

Thank you Vaughn for loving me today, yesterday, and tomorrow too! I love you! 

Happy Valentine's Day!

Monday, February 6, 2017


“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭14:14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I'm sure you have all read this verse. Most of you have probably seen it on an uplifting meme, have it as an encouraging poster, or maybe even have it written on a post-it note hanging from your bathroom mirror. You probably read it to yourself when you are in midst of a battle that you want to give up or give in. It's encouraging to know that God will fight for you and you just need to sit back and do nothing. Much less pressure, right? Though I think there are times for that this verse is not saying that. 

In Exodus Chapter 13 and 14, Pharoah finally let the Israelites go, free from slavery and out of Egypt. The Israelites were on their way out when Pharoah hardened his heart and decided to go after them. As you can imagine, the Israelites were scared; they were upset at Moses' leadership and their assumable pending death. They look behind them and see hundreds of Egyptians ready to attack and look before them and see no escape, but the impassable Red Sea. The Israelites were truly in a challenging situation.

“As Pharaoh approached, the Israelites looked up, and there were the Egyptians, marching after them. They were terrified and cried out to the LORD. They said to Moses, “Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you brought us to the desert to die? What have you done to us by bringing us out of Egypt? Didn’t we say to you in Egypt, ‘Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians’? It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!””
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭14:10-12‬ ‭NIV

Moses, like a good leader often does, tried encouraging his people, letting them know that they just need to stay calm and God is on their side. Which, my guess is, Moses was saying it more for himself than for them. Look at what he says,

“Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.””
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭14:13-14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

This sounds good. God will fight for us, we don't have to do anything, right? Wrong! Look what God's response is in verse 15.

“Then the LORD said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on. Raise your staff and stretch out your hand over the sea to divide the water so that the Israelites can go through the sea on dry ground.”
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭14:15-16‬ ‭

I LOVE this! God basically says "umm Moses don't you see you are wasting time. Don't just stand there- MOVE!" God is more than capable of getting things done without us, but more times than not he wants us to be involved. He wants us to depend on him, ask him for direction, but then he wants US to make the move. 

God's direction was big, huge, what we would call impossible. But guess what, Moses moved and because he didn't "stay still and just wait for God to fight his battles" he witnessed another miracle that not only saved his life, but the lives of all the Israelites.

“Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea, and all that night the LORD drove the sea back with a strong east wind and turned it into dry land. The waters were divided, and the Israelites went through the sea on dry ground, with a wall of water on their right and on their left.”
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭14:21-22‬ ‭NIV‬‬

How many of us are "losing a battle" because we are just staying still and letting God fight for us when God is clearly telling us to Go! What miracles are we missing out on? God does fight for us! He IS for us, but he also wants US to make the MOVE!

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Running Out of Womb

My heart went out to Mikah as we were abruptly awoken this morning by a nurse to take our blood- and I had a thought. I felt so bad for him as he screamed and cried as the nurse squeezed blood from his little foot. Only 24 short hours before, he was cozy and warm in the womb. Comfortable. Safe. Now in a strange world with so many new things. A world not as safe and even a little scary. I'm sure at that time, Mikah would have loved to be back in my womb curled up in his warm cocoon of a home. Content in his known world. Even though this new world has been rough on our little man, he understood it was time to start living it.

Just think of all the wonderful things Mikah would be missing out on if he had stayed in his content, known world: he'd miss out on mommy' s eyes that look at him filled with so much awe and love, the tickle feeling of his daddy's beard brush against him as he gets late night cuddles, the smell and taste of fresh milk made just for him, the sound of big sister giggles every time he made a little sound, and the experience of learning and growing with every new and exciting minute. 

Ok Christians, now think.. What are you missing out on? What blessings are you not experiencing because you are choosing to live in your "spiritually safe" world. I challenge you to step up and start living because you are "running out of womb." 

How many times as Christians do we "stay in the womb"? Safe, comfortable, content. Not taking a chance to "get out" and "start living". There is nothing wrong with safety and begin with, but what if Mikah continued to stay in my womb? Eventually the room runs out... There is no more room for growth! The same thing happens in our spiritual life! If we stay in the safe zone and in our own world of content- our walk with Christ will NOT grow.

Now, how about it? Take a step out of your comfort zone- move where God directs- and watch yourself GROW!

Mikah Willem Fahrenbruck
October 14, 2015 @ 2:58 am
7lbs- 19 3/4 in

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Make My Heart Whole

Originally written February 2014

In mid-September it was confirmed with two purple pluses; I was going to be a mom. In that very moment, my mind was flooded with emotions. Excitement, happiness, surprise, stress, anxiety, worry, pretty much a little of it all… As Vaughn and I began to think about our new adventure in life, the more the emotions came. As weeks went by, our excitement grew, along with our worries (and my belly). Prenatal vitamins, doctor appointments, ultrasounds, nursery ideas, and hospital bills became our reality and the stress of it all hit. In November, wreceived some not-so-good and definitely some shocking news about our sweet little bundle of joy. It definitely put a new perspective on life for us, but also on a new level of worry. When our 20 week ultrasound came around, the technician was concerned about the possibility of a hole in our baby girl’s heart and we scheduled a fetal echocardiogram to further examine. Sure enough, the echocardio confirmed that our sweet little princess does have a medium to large VSD (ventrical septum defect) that will within time require surgery. Vaughn and I left the hospital in high spirits, but within time my high spirits quickly faded.  Nothing can drop you to your knees quicker than bad news from the hospital, especially about your child. When I got home the stress and worry piled on and I began to pray. I prayed and I prayed hard. I don’t think I’ve ever called on the name of Jesus more. I begged him in prayer to heal my baby’s heart-to fill that hole.
Then it hit me- we are all born with a hole in our heart. A hole so big that desperately needs filled. A God-shaped hole that only Jesus himself can fill; a hole perfectly sized for our Savior to live. We all should be desperately crying out to Jesus to heal and fill our hearts, but only when there’s a physical hole is when we see our need for Him. I continue to be on my knees daily in prayer –crying out to Jesus to fill my baby girl’s heart, but now I cry out for Him to continue to fill mine. “Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong.”  Ephesians 3:17

Lord, today I cry out to you. Fill my heart, Jesus. Fill it with you. I recognize my need for you and the desire for my heart to be made whole.